AUGUST!!!!...

OMG.... I can't believe it's August already! Time has just flown by! This is such a huge step, I'd be lying to say I wasn't getting a little bit nervous.

I had my pre-op doctor's check-up yesterday & am good to go. He told me that he thinks it would be hard for me to lose 100 lbs or more, thinking I'll probably settle around the 180 lb mark, which is okay, but not what I think I can do. He said I'd have to work for it if I wanted more, he doesn't know me, does he? Well, actually, he DOES know me, LOL, but I'm determined to completely take advantage of what I'm being given here & totally plan on doing everything I need to be doing to be successful!! I know that I don't want to take on more exercise than I can live w/ forever because that can backfire if/when you can't keep up, but I am going to be walking & if I can get the nerve up to get into a swimsuit again, I'll be doing water aerobics, too, because I really love it!

I joined the Y a year ago & have been TWICE! I joined for the water aerobics classes & went a few times & yes, I loved it, but I'm so self conscious in my suit, I haven't talked myself into going back. It's ridiculous to be paying & not going. I wonder how long it will be after surgery before I can do that level of exercise? It's GOOD exercise & I just need to go. I know people couldn't care less about how I look, I just need to get over that.

I'm ready to start walking more... I've done some, but it hurts. This weight really sucks. I can feel it everywhere.... ankles, knees, hips, elbows, shoulders, etc. This is a HUGE reason why I'm doing this surgery... who wants to feel like this? Not me! I'm too young to feel like this.